I Don’t Know What To Say

- Rift: Part II - Poem X -

I wish I could tell you the weight I bear,

But the words slip away when I open my mouth

Have you found someone gentle, someone in prayer?

While I stand here lost, heading nowhere but south

Do you speak of me kindly, or bury the past?

Do your friends nod along with a smile in disguise?

I thought I could love you, but I couldn’t last,

Too young in my heart, too afraid of your eyes

You’re warm as the sun on a cold autumn day,

You’re the place I could run to when shadows would grow

But I packed up my silence and just walked away,

Not ready to tell you the things you should know

I’m sorry I left when your heart asked me near,

But sorry feels small in the mouth of a boy

I wish I could speak, but my courage is fear,

And my love was fragile, an unfinished toy

I don’t know what to say,

Now that I’ve broken your heart,

And walked the other way