Out Of The Blue

- Rift: Part I - Poem IX -

Our time has dulled the sting enough to speak,

I pace through our firefly echoes, worn and oblique

I twist the past and attempt to comprehend,

Was I the final fracture that compelled the broken end?

I thought love was a choice that forged a string’s frays,

But it was pulled thin, and you cut it anyway

With double vision clouding all I saw,

Was I too numb to see your heart withdraw?

Didn’t I give you enough when all I did was coo?

Haven’t I given enough when it was just me who grew?

I bent till I broke just for you,

Then you went and left out of the blue

The shadows of our future past, cast me the fool,

A lover bound to a phantom’s rule

Still, I believed you’d carry me inside,

Through ruins where nicer spirits reside

This city’s edge holds graves without a name,

Like the mystery guys who stalked your page

How stupid was I, that you thought I’d never know?

I begged you to give it to me all at once, but instead I found out in troves

Didn’t I give you enough? Was I just another in the queue?

Haven’t I given enough? Didn’t I deserve the truth?

I broke ‘till I braved the dark for you,

But you left me out in the blue

I stretch these arms, too long, too late, too wide,

Hoping you’d be a better man and not deny

Lie sweetly, falsify what might’ve been,

That hurt the most than the silence that caved in

What did they give that I could’ve given you?

The gifts, the hugs, the sex, was it all not true?

You threw it all away and loosened the screws,

And crumbled our house in a town of red and minimal blue

You came out of the blue like that,

And you left out of the blue, just like that